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O to the BLUE

2012-01-08T10:10:00.000-08:00

Well, the fact that i'm typing all this things out in the middle of the night suggest that I ain't sleeping that early today!

Basically, that's a habit and it has nothing to do with the fact that tmr is gonna be a nerve wracking day! Hell to some, bells to some. Who knows where I may end up? Well, God's in control! & I have to trust in him and what should I worry for?

Anyway, it's really bad because my stomach does this flip whenever I think about it. Well, it ain't really my fault but, everyone's talking about it. I can't really act as if nothing is happening right? Seriously, if i just try not touching the computer today, perhaps my stomach would just be yearning for some food instead of doing some weird stuffs.

Anyway, deep down, I don't know what I should be feeling about the tmr. I don't feel worried but at the same time, I want it to be good. Part of me still worries about what would happen if i turns out bad, would I be prepared? In reality, i'm only prepared for good results therefore, i haven't really reflect on what would happen to me if it doesn't turns out to be what I wanted. Of course, everyone would be wishing for the best. I mean, that goes for me too. But the problem is, I'm not thinking that much into it. So, i'm not really worried I guess? But there is always the, "what if..." that stays in my head.

Ouh, and I had to think about what would I do if I get this.. What should I do if.. I mean my expression. Would I just stare at that piece of paper? Should I be happy?

I'm half happy right now yeh know. (If you get what I meant..)

Oh well, I really have to trust in God! I've done my part and did the best. That, i'm very sure EXCEPT for one subject. But yes, thank God for everything! I've got no regrets even for that 1 subject.

Alright, lets get this over and done with! :-)

I'll praise God no matter what the out come would be tmr! Cheers to whoever is reading this.

Goodnight world.

2012

2011-12-31T10:28:00.000-08:00

Happy new year to everyone!

I guess you'll see this everywhere. I mean like, everyone is using the social network to wish each other. Is that sincere enough? Well, there better be a good reason for humans to invent such an "awesome" devices.

Anyway, 'kesaksian' today. Really awesome! It was a really last minute item that everyone never knew. So, i said everything in English and at that very moment, all attention was mine. It was incredible, really.

Gotta be optimistic this year again!
X000 never fails. Good health to everyone.

Come back stage.

2011-12-15T20:47:00.000-08:00

Totally fell in love with their voices. I have no idea why.
This is what I call real music, real voices.
Because they can sing LIVE!!! Really, they are RARE. Love'em.

Into the old world.

2011-12-02T01:28:00.000-08:00

This is an old photo taken a few weeks ago when I went for cruise. Nevertheless, I hope this would stay inside my brain cells forever! It shall be a memorable one because it was like having straight 3 buffets for free. Who gets that everyday in life eh? Luckily my stomach did not burst. Proud of you, stomach!

The strong wind that blew my soul away.

Was a lil late for sunrise! URGH:(

THE END. More posted @ FB.

PS: Love the midnight chill that made me feel like I'm flying.

What to do!

2011-11-21T07:24:00.000-08:00

List of things to do:

- Get a new guitar and thus buying new strings with my bro!
- Learning simple Korean language.
- Making breakfast for family. (Esp dady)
- To hand make something special for friends (Since they never received Christmas presents from me before) Thinking of something special so that they'd love them.
- Finish up with my piano songs.
- Help to plant something! (Make a garden and such if I'm able to)

That's what I'm thinking right now. While waiting for my other cousin to come back from a distant travel. Bet he would want to use the comp. I've been using it for HOURS. Can't go out due to the lack of experience in Indo. So i can't really go out by myself like in Singapore. It's unsafe and well yeh know.. Language barrier. This is bad.

Perhaps, i'd be thinking of learning back Bahasa Indonesia:)
Cool stuffs! Maya Fighting!

BANMAL

2011-11-14T07:01:00.000-08:00

AHHHHHHH. ADDICTED. CRAP.

YEAY, Happy happy. Really love his voice. But he sounds weird singing other songs. He sounds best singing his own songs yo. I love it. Can be like my heroine but it's bad. So i'm not going to dwell onto his songs too much.

But he really has a nice voice.

Loving the lyrics too.

AHHHHH, okay I shouldn't get addicted seriously. BAHHH!!!

STRESSSSS!

2011-11-11T10:20:00.000-08:00

HOOT.

As much as I'd love to have a Camera (esp a DSLR CANNON), having one without any inspiration is meaningless too. I figured that perhaps I'm still young to have one - as much as this would contradict in my current society and generation. I still accept the fact that i should get one my own when my interest is really going off the hook. Therefore, I decided that I should stop getting jealous with those that have a good camera despite not having anything to cherish them. This would perhaps stop me from having any form of snatching or robbing through my desperate desire to peel off their skin for not taking care of their camera. If you think you have a lot of money to spend, perhaps donating your dear camera that you don't adore much to me would be so much nicer. STRESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.

Anyway, went working today. It was at Sentosa, therefore it was fun! The resort there was really beautiful and nice. Not being able to enjoy the scenery - STREESSSS!!! But luckily i earned money and got a pretty good view of what it was like to be there. Nothing very interesting anyway, can just go in and pretend that you're some idiot who has heavy pocket containing COINS. It'll be fun!

Oh, i've learned how i could get in to Sentosa without paying AHHAHHAHAHAHHAHA. This is so cool. Should just do it next time, it saves big bucks.

Ah, Bay got her first spill too though. So proud of her! I had mine on the first day - well it was cooler since it was the first time i went to work. The staffs got her a new dress and even initiated on dry washing her dress. But the worse; was that her LV bag got stained. I don't how much it cost and probably wouldn't wanna find out. It was well.. expensive I guess. Ha, luckily nothing happened to me. I've got a great good partner - Alden! Somehow felt thankful since it was kinda slack for the 2 of use to take care of only 3 tables where else the others had one to 2 tables.

But the Indian manager was horrible. He had a bad smell and scolded us for talking. Just because my partner had to tell me stuff related to work? Well, his bad smell wasn't the kind of sweat from working but it was just.... eeeyew. Just different. Didn't tell anyone though, thought it was bad.

Uh, had my cousin to fetch me after work! It's COOL because he looked kinda handsome with his working outfit driving in his car (which is my fav due to the blue light and silver colour appearance hehhe). He had a FREE and GREAT(the BIG BIG CRAB broadcasted in the deadliest catch) dinner while i was busy working. Sigh, but luckily i got home quite early. But it's 2.30 now and i'm not tucking in.

Oh well, I still feel like watching my show HEHEHE

EXCITED FOR CRUISE.

But gotta study for my MCQ paper.

But it feels like i'm already having my official holiday.

This is bad.

Indeed.

Anyway, red wine is good. Highly addictive and recommended. This is the first time i'm liking a weird drink. Thanks to my dearest cousin. SAFE. Don't worry.

Simple inspirations; Melted wax

2011-11-06T09:30:00.000-08:00

(Melted wax) - By one and only me. Anyone wants to make this a song?

Always the same sky.

Always the same day.

Have my heart changed?

Maybe because God favored you

I've fallen for you, fallen for you.

Melted in your sweet love

Mesmerized by you

I've really fallen for you.

My heart went thump thump

Without my permission,

I've fallen for you

What should I do?

There is no turning back

Although we would never be the same

I wish you all the best

And have a great life

No more falling for you, falling for you

A hole in my heart

Far away from you

No more falling for you.

Hearts that is made of strings.

2011-11-06T09:11:00.000-08:00

Still too young.

But.

I love hugs. Really do.

End of Os

2011-11-04T07:16:00.000-07:00

Finally it felt like..... FREEDOM.

Ah, 5 years i've been waiting, and here goes the day! But i've still got paper1. But man, let's have some fun first before getting back on the work. Anyway, i felt really really sincerely happy although i literally screwed my SS paper. Hah, nothing i studied came out. But i thank God because he gave me a mind and general knowledge that allows me to think.

The face that you would see in my facial expression during the exam was.. PRICELESS. I bet. Anyway, it's over. TIME FOR SOME FUN KAY :D WOOOOOO

Ha, but i feel like dying alr. I'm falling sick. Hehehhe but it's still.... the feeling of satisfaction that is good. HEHHEHEHE AHHHHHHHHHH GO AWAY SICKNESS THANK YOU.

BOOM.

2011-09-26T05:31:00.000-07:00

I'm going to crash soon. But, i'll be able to survive I guess:) God, please please please be in control!

I think i'm fine.

2011-09-25T07:04:00.001-07:00

LOSE ONE, GAIN TWO. GOOD BUY?

NO.

BUT.

AS LONG AS IT'S GOD'S WILL.............

I'll be alright:)

Okay, temptations please back off. I need my mood back. Anyway, i promise to take thousands of pictures after my Os. Definitely get a life and enjoy life and SPAM MY LIFE. I WILL.

Miracles!

2011-09-24T08:41:00.001-07:00

I just got HEALED! In the name of Jesus!

Praise God!

(FRIDAY, FEVER HEADACHE COULDN'T FREAKING BREATHE THRU MY NOSE)

I remembered someone telling me to seek God before medicine. And so I did.

Never got so bad before, first time i got sick this year I guess. I wasn't really feeling well. I couldn't walk 5 foot away without feeling dizzy. I couldn't think properly. I could have fainted if i continued to study! God gave me plenty of time to rest and even rescheduled my plans. Well, I did not consume any medicine, no panadols. And everything was gone, I could breathe properly! No fever no fainty feeling... It was absolutely awesome! The feeling was great. I mean, the night before you felt dead and the next day, you felt alive! Furthermore, I had lots of energy that lasted me till now. I mean, this is cool!

All glory goes to God!

Crack the egg.

2011-09-05T08:03:00.001-07:00

This is absolutely funny. Well, just for laughs:)

iamsassymeanne:

GIRLS HAVE THE BOOBS. Personally I think boobs are annoying, you gotta spend a bunch of money on bras and if you’re too small your clothes won’t look good, but if you’re too big you can’t find shirts that fit. An extra couple lbs on your chest n shit, man. WTF.

GUYS HAVE DICKS. I WOULD LOVE TO HAVE ONE OR TWO OMG. You can pee anywhere the fuck you want, whip it out baby and just whizzzz. And you can have sex like crazy and no one would call you a whore. DICKSFTW.

GIRLS HAVE VAGINAS. OMG, I can’t walk into a fucking dark alley scared for my life without thinking someones gonna tear me apart! BECAUSE I HAVE A VAGINA. I HATE HAVING A VAG, MAN. IT’S LIKE OPEN TERRITORY THAT’S ALWAYS IN DANGER OF RAPE.

GIRLS HAVE A LOT MORE BODY FAT. Seriously man, it’s so hard to be in shape if you aren’t born to be skinny. Girls will always have more body fat and will always have a harder time losing weight. AND WE PRACTICALLY COMPETE WITH EACHOTHER TO LOOK GOOD.

GUYS ALMOST ALWAYS HAVE FLAT ABS. I swear, for a dude it’s so easy to get buff. They could eat like crazy AND THEY DO. WTSHIT YOU LUCKYASSSSESSS.

GIRLS WEAR MAKE UP. Okay I hate that makeup was ever invented for girls but since it’s available basically you’re open to the opportunity to make yourself look and FEEL better! SO THAT’S WHY WE USE IT!!! If it was never invented then we would all have lower standards and no one could compare and there would be such a thing as natural beauty! BUT THERE ISN’T. THERE FUCKING ISN’T. Artificial beauty is the way society makes it. Society forces a larger standard because of makeup. GOD FUCKING DAMN IT.

GUYS DONT HAVE MAKE UP TO WEAR. Unless they like eyeliner but they always look hot with it!!! WHY DO GUYS LOOK BETTER WITH EYELINER THAN I DO?? WHY WHY WHY. And since they never wore makeup to begin it, they don’t have a huge fucking scale of standards to follow. They aren’t going to be ‘ugly’ or ‘pretty’ it would all just be natural. AND GUYS ARE SO BEAUTIFUL!!!!!!!!!!!!!111111

GIRLS HAVE TO GO SHOPPING. I mean we just got to. WE DO. It’s in our female dna. There’s so much clothes and styles for us and there’s a bunch to choose from and omfg you just can’t. It’s in your fucking face, all the clothes and accessories. Definitely a necessity and you can’t avoid it. We go broke for style.

GUYS COULD ROCK TSHIRTS AND SHORTS. ALL. THE. TIME. And it’s perfectly fine! You don’t even have to care man cause I personally think that’s ALL a guy needs to look good! THAT’S IT! They don’t need to do this and that and do their hair like this n that or this n that or this n that! They could throw on anything and call it a day and it’s NORMAL.

GIRLS HAVE TO SHAVE. Every. Little. THING. Shave out legs, below the knee and above the knee. And girls should never have armpit hair so if you have it, SHAVE. And hairy arms on girls are just gross. SHAVE. Hairy vags? SHAVE. SHAVE SHAVE SHAVE. JUST SHAVE IT ALL!!!!!

The unwanted life

2011-09-02T06:59:00.000-07:00

Felt like escaping from the reality.

How much I hate the fact that they abandoned me here.

Thinking that it'd do good for me.

Now, unsure about my future.

With the plus point of me being a lazy person.

Finding it hard to survive in this society.

People doing better than me and that i'd be jealous.

They're supposed to live well.

They're supposed to be worse off than me.

But how could they do the opposite.

It makes me unable to hate them more;

Feeling like a jerk that only knows how to hate others while living in this darn good life.

Doing something that I like yet its not beneficial for my future.

Thinking that it'd suck and not earn lots of money.

Where do I stand in this society?

I don't know. Neither do I want to know.

This is torturing.

Please,

Live well and make me able to hate you, will you?

Heroes.

2011-08-28T10:43:00.001-07:00

I'm starving, yet again.

It was a weekly routine, very common. I have already got used to the habit of not eating every 2 days.

I live in District 12 of London, where human rights never existed. In my world, being penniless is not a surprising fact. I never get to go to school nor touch a book. The only knowledge of the world, is through stories which my parents were told by their ancestors. Therefore, starving here is a weekly routine which everyone here had to go through whether you are old or young. I had grown immune to the system of working from morning to night that I thought I was born to serve and get tortured.

Until one fine day.

Everything was still. Not even a single soul laughed. It was nightfall. Another group of people had just died killed by the usage of mind blasters. I stood standing in the aftermath of the blow, hoping that my none of my family members were actually affected. But just as I thought that everyone was safe, something different happened.

Mark, my best friend, were hit by the second blow and survived by a mere shot. I watched him as he screamed in pain, lying with blood spattered all over him. The lifeless people around me did not bother to step up and help him. Desperate, I stepped out of my comfort zone and ran towards him.

"He's gonna be alright." I mumbled as I ran towards him. I could feel all the gaze turned towards me as though I was now a star, the center of attraction. I couldn't help but dread my leg towards him, I couldn't be sure whether he was alive or dead. Neither do I want to know the truth.

As though luck had fallen from the sky, a sudden miracle happened. I fall on my knees beside him, and saw his eyes slightly opened with his deep breathing sounds that meant his lungs are trying its best to keep him alive. As desperate as I could be, I quickly lifted him up and brought his face near to me, praying deep in my heart that he could survive this blow. I screamed, wanting all the eyes that fell upon me to help.

But none came. I screamed again and again. It felt as though all hopes were going disseapear when suddenly my next door neighbor came and helped. We carried him up and ran as fast as we could to the nearest hospital. At that very moment, the once called "Cold-blooded" humans had transformed. They came and lifted him up, running towards the nearest hospital.

Home set

2011-08-26T02:37:00.000-07:00

Whoa, super best! PRELIM IS OVAR\\\\\\\\ SCREAMS

The next best thing is that, I've got my OWN LAPTOP! Although it may be taken away once in awhile. But currently, i'll keep it as a prisoner. \\\\\\\

Happy me happy you! I can finally watch my shows! But can't go overboard. If not i'll die. And the bad thing is, after prelims means that Os is coming! Which also means, LONG TERM HOLIDAY IS COMING ^^

Okay something I have awaited for a really long time! I can't wait actually. Though I may imagine myself getting bored at times. But it's alright! HAHAHAHA SHOWS SHOWS SHOW\\\\\\\\\ HEHEHHE

Anyway, i'm stuck in my drama world from like 10AM? Hhhaha, i'm probably mad. It's 12AM now.

Hearts of garden.

2011-08-22T05:15:00.000-07:00

喜歡看你傻傻的表情
好像全世界都很平靜
或許是老天爺特別的疼你
果然愛情悄悄地降臨
這種快樂并不必懷疑
或許你只需要睜大眼睛
用心地體會這種美好的滋味
有一天你會真的了解

多么希望幸福在你身邊
看你的愛情有個完美句點
再給我一點時間
要繪出一個畫面
是你轉身微笑的澀臉
多么希望祝福圍繞你身邊
像許多白鴿飛舞的藍天
讓你追逐的世界
變得那么確切
慢慢畫著心中的花園

I think this lyric is very meaningful.

At least, to me. I think this song is very attractive.

I'm particularly sad today. But i know God's in control! And I will trust God no matter what other people say. Some times, there are just some things that not meant for you to know. I'm starting to accept that fact now..

Just..

Give me more time.

What are the odds?

2011-08-18T18:52:00.000-07:00

Cool and uncool. I'm neutral. Totally not feeling biased in anyway.
What are the odds, seriously? MT O levels wasn't supposed to mean much to me. I mean, it is important. But, there is no spirit of excellence. What am I supposed to do?

Freeze.

That's all i know. My brain froze. Not even a tunnel tube for God to speak to me. Or rather, I'm not sensetive enough to hear him. At first, nothing came when I asked for my answers. 3 hours later, still nothing.

But i never gave up. I asked the people around me for opinions and questions. Only to find out that I was being brainwashed because all and I mean ALL discouraged me to retake this Chinese paper. But something in my heart doesn't feel the same way. Something IS wrong.

It's a beautiful night!

2011-08-13T09:29:00.000-07:00

Alright, why am I here? No idea..
Just felt like spamming some major pictures. Let the choir bell sings then, enjoy!

Thus, the older pictures come first!

Ever post this before? Guess not.
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Anyway, we can't live without cameras!

Nice picture huh!

Okay, i like me inside this picture! Hhaha. It just so happens that he's inside it too.

Told cha!

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Alright, next event! Pretteh pretteh wearing dress for BBSS cultural night!

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Rad con! Whoooo!

Felt like something is missing here? Oh wells..
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National day, Captain ball compertition! 1st place yeay :-)
Gonna be precious memories man!

Well done girls! :-)
Never were we so united!

Just look at the amount of food we ordered. But the noodles was good, no regrets! I had 3 bowls, different type of noodles anw!

I wasn't posting! I was so full that I had to position myself that way. Thus, got a nice shot!

was trying to post for a model shot, but the lighting was funny. Didn't turn out to be what I expected and wanted anyway! Sad much.

Hhaha, a failed shot. But it's alright! :-)

Good night to the people in this world! God is blessing! Had a great day! Thank you :)

COME T THE LIVIN WATER

2011-07-30T02:11:00.000-07:00

I choose to believe in Lord Jesus.
Sorry for even wavering in my faith Lord.

Thank you for the second chance!

PEEP!

2011-07-17T07:47:00.000-07:00

YEAY, had a great BBQ yesterday! :-)
Had a great time playing guitar and singing with my fellow peopo. Really great! Everyone singing along, no matter you're a great singer or a bad singer, no matter whether you're a great guitarist or not a guitarist. Every one's presence just lifted the whole atmosphere!

Anyway, I feel like I'm wasting my whole Sunday! But it's alright! I'm lookin forward to tmr's PE lesson! :-) Anticipation and thrill flowing in my mind~ PEEP! Gonna make the day useful and awesome! Gonna buckle up my momentom and run with the greatest speed! Perhaps there'll be acceleration but, who doesn't right?

Anyway, God's presence was really great in the service hall on Saturday! Really BRILLIANT, COOL AND AMAZING! Looking forward to Friday and Saturday for Radical Conference! Going to be MAGNIFICENT BET CHA!

Okay, let's get to the study mood since I'll be having LC for Chinese on Tuesday!

Ressurection.

2011-06-25T08:39:00.001-07:00

Our praise and all we are today, take it all! I'll never be ashamed of you, oh Lord. In reverse, I'm so proud to be a child of God! Prayer is really important! And it really works, God hears it people:)

I once, no many times I prayed that I want break thru. I want to know what does it mean, and what does it feels like. I wanted to experience it so badly. My heart felt dry at a moment. I've almost lost my faith, I was on the verge of giving up. But God is good, all the time! He never let me crossed that line, and help me even when temptation comes. Though things may not seems what it is like, but God is definitely doing something about it!

Today, during service God gave me my answer that i've been yearning to hear for. Well, he showed me how huge his love is. It aint' anything simple alright. But it's really huge and he really send his One and Only Son Jesus to die on the cross for our sins. I really thank God for that, and now, we could all praise him in his freedom that he gave! How awesome is that? Plus now, whenever i praise and worship him, it feels like every sentence really speaks by itself. I don't know how to discribe this extremely cool feeling to anyone out there who is reading but all I know is, once you know the love of God, once you believe in it, with your whole heart and with all your mind, you'll experience what I had just experience just now.

God is really awesome and wonderful! I really want to glorify his name and shout to the whole world how wonderful he is, and I shall not be afraid anymore because HE IS AWESOME! :-) All glory goes to God! :-)

Anyway I saw this somewhere:
"Be proud to display your life to your Lord God, and be able to say, "This is what my life is - I have trialled and suffered, yet I have succeeded in you, O Lord.""
Amazing huh? I love you, Oh Lord! (Always and Forever)

BLOG REVIVAL

2011-06-11T07:23:00.000-07:00

Okay, daily entry is back! Time to re-enter the whole new world that is full of excitment and climax of muah life! :-):-):-)
Basically, time has been running really fast. With a double speed and velocity, it's June right now!!! Yeah, it's gonna be a few more months before i can say bye to this secondary school of mine! Whether it's a smile bye or a sad bye, it all boils down to this few months! Gotta work really hard to be able to make my Father Lord happy and proud off! Really wanna do something amazing for him so that he'll be able to proudly declare me infront of the heavenly father!
Well, recently I've finished sitting for my mother tongue paper 1 and 2. It was really scary and unpredictable as i sat for that 3 and a half hours in the examination hall. Well, I do have high hopes for it but it still all boils down to the oral! Gotta hope that I'll obtain a distinction!

Life's been really amazing! But its time for me to have a break through! There's much more things out there and all the highlights will be declared out soon! Catch up with you soon, Mr Bloggie. Meanwhile, bye!

PEEZ

2011-05-04T08:37:00.000-07:00

YEAY, LOVE MUAH LIFE!
I THANK GOD FOR IT!
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Met hot guy today hahaha.
Met SOMEONE.
and oh well. more to that.
but idk whether this is supposed to be a good thing or a bad thing.
oh wells,
Busy watching show now.
Slow update. Hehhe, chiao.

Oh, thank you election for making monday a holiday! :-)
thank you God that he made that election happen to be on that day!
I get a free day to study!!!!!!!! Hopefully it'll be effective! Muah.

Glory glory!

2011-04-22T05:56:00.000-07:00

Okay let's upload some pictures into here !!!! :-)
and let your eyes tell you the story. (with some help of the words duh)

okay there's a series of events going on in my life! I'll upload some pictures though. Random mostly. Oh wells, you'll certainly see my face everywhere since i wasn't the photographer in this events! Hhaha, i miss taking pictures but i'm glad that i'm able to be the model for these photographers TEEHEE!

First up, the most recent and latest! BBSS 22nd sports day! :-)

FYI: I'm glad that i've obtained all that i've lost from the past few years! Got it back, i got it back! :-)
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THOMPSON WON THE CHAMPION HOUSE!!!
THOMPSON FTW~
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It's sooooo cool! :-P

I had the chance, the opportunity to present Mrs Key, our dearest principal a token of appreciation! HHAHAHA, and i still remember it goes like this-

Teacher: "Maya! I want you to present the flowers to Mrs Key later."
Me: "HUH, what token??"
Teacher: "Flowers."
Me: "Why me?"
Teacher: "Just go there give her and say thank you Mrs Key"
Me: "Why me?? When?"
Teacher: "Later. Later."
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10 minutes later..
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Speaker: "Okay, now we would like to invite Maya Astrida to present a token of appreciation to our principal Mrs Key. Maya please"

As i took the 3 steps forward, my heart pumped like an on going train on their way to a long long long journey. It felt so unreal, it felt like i was in the wonderland. Okay, it felt weird yet awesome. Just because it is so awesomely COOL. Man, i've achieved it! :-)

And i couldn't believe my ears when i heard the words that came out from that lousy school speaker. Thought it might be a lil lousy, i still could hear the words. Once my butt took off from the ground, all i heard was screams. It was an amazing feeling, couldn't contain that joy! Alright, enough is enough.

Last but not least,
the day wouldn't be so wonderful without my dearest house members! Especially to Rachel, NgShihui, Yaqi and Chui Fern. Oh, thank you Hanna for her shoes too! :-)

And of course,
Thank God for the courage that he gave me! The day wouldn't have passed without him.
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Obviously, this post contain all the joy and stuffs. But seriously? It was so scary, so bad that i was on the verge of giving up during the races. I even injured myself during the 4 x100m race. luckily it got better during FPM! Man, awesome awesome! Couldn't belive that i could pass everything. Man, all thanks to God! :-)
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Thank you Tim for all the treats! It's been a wonderful tan! Thank you for making me fat. Wooo~
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Next up, AAC 2011!

Awesome! A very late congratz to those people who got the prizes! It's amazing to see your friends going up the stage, shaking hands with those "important" people. Yeay, and i'm happy to see all the 2010 BBSS peeps!

The future.

2011-04-10T07:53:00.000-07:00

I'll be the one that God wants me to be.
I'll be better than what you'd imagine me to be.
I'll be someone that you'll drool over.
I'll be the one you'd dream to be with.
I'll be the one that will make you regret your choices.
I'll be the girl that make you doubt your current choices.
I'll be the only one that will make your life goes upside down.
I'll be the woman that will not get thrown by other people.
I'll be the one that will change all your negative things.
I'll be the one to accept who you are.
I'll be the one that will make you admire.
I'll be the one and only person that leave a mark in your memory.
I'll be the one clinging down to your mind.
I'll be the one that change your life right left.
I'll be the single person known to be unique.
I'll be the one that will make you know Jesus.
I'll be the one that will bring you to your saviour.
I'll be the one that will bring you to paradise.
And i'll be the one that you'll be thankful for.

My name is Maya Astrida.
Welcome to the future of my life.

Faith

2011-04-01T08:58:00.001-07:00

Love is God, God is love. Faith.

Questions and doubts!

2011-03-26T08:56:00.001-07:00

Okay, one faithful question to be asked.

What are you living life for?

this follows to a few other questions.

Who gave you life?
And why are you having this life?
What's the purpose?

And that's the reason why we study..

To get to know more questions that can't be answered.

This world is getting more and more genius.

Heyho!

2011-03-13T07:30:00.000-07:00

YEAYYY!!!!

It's been ages since i touched the camera! Like finally i'm able to play with my wife(s). Hehhee, it's not mine officially therefore, i can keep on changing with many many wife(s). Never edit my wife for so darn long too~ Phew. Like finally, i am able to touch and play with them!

Hehhehe. So happy ^_^
LIKE DUH.

Hahha, alright I zi-lian just for the sake of wasting the battery and making full full use of it :P Therefore, plz wear your sunglasses and prepare for the worse! TAHDAH :D

Eh walau, no comment plz:)
and i'm totally cute kay. HAHAHAH , KID MAN

I love this picture! It totally gives the guitar feelin'

Idk what i like about this. Perhaps its too random? No idea. And the greeny thing was edited because theres this post it that is green in colour. So i thought it would match. But i guess it kinda ruined the photo a lil. Oh, and I was just trying out this new editing photos thingy. Hah, cool man.
But nah, not as cool as my own personal fav editing webbie.

And wooo! the hoodie that i'm wearing is given by Jeanney and Chingyou! Much loves <3 style="text-align: center;">

Okay incase you people who saw this are wondering what is written on the post-it, it's actually written, "Open up my eyes that I may see wonderful things in your law" Psalms 119:18. Hhehe, it serves as a reminder. Though i might pass it by sometimes but hey, it's awesome kay.

Btw, the dip was totally cool man! I couldn't believe it. You people out there should just look at it! After looking at that, well, I really have nothing to doubt about my dear Lord Jesus man! I mean, what's there to doubt about after looking at those people giving up and surrendering their lives to him? So awesome! I guess it's their best best best choice ever. And after the whole thing I spent hours thinking about what will happen to mine. My testimony which i dare not to say it out or share it with people. And i even had that image of my parents coming to singapore just to see me getting saved! Cool cool cool! I shall include that in my prayers. Hehhehe. GAH, SO AWESOME!!!!!!!!!

Okay perhaps people out there couldn't understand a single thing. Hahha, you should experience it. It's the best thing ever. I mean it!

Okay so long since i've posted things like these. Yeay me!

Worse case ever.

2011-03-11T05:29:00.001-08:00

> I got scalded by hot concentrated alkaline on my head and hand.
> I got hit by glasses that contained acid. It hit my leg.
> I got smacked by flute that leaves a blue-black and a scar on my eyebrown.

Thank God it just didn't hit my eye.

> It turned out that I've forgot to do my homework.
> I'm so gonna be dead tmr.
> Busy with photos.
> But glad that it turned out really well.
> Here goes some random samples of my pictures!
> CC for the win! :-)

> Life's great cuz God's been doing all the work in my life.
> I'm so gonna stop using comp.
> Alright, happy to meet him this week again!
> Though it might just be a few minutes.
> No.
> Second.
> Hhaha :D
> But head hurts really badly today.
> Pray that it'll be better tmr.

Amen Amen Amen! :-)

> I'm in love with Jason Mraz's song.
> Check out LIVE Photography @ Facebook for more pictures and updates in BBSS!

Buzzer.

2011-02-24T23:01:00.000-08:00

Hey people! :)
Are you feeling blessed? Well, yeah I am. I am feeling extremely blessed! :-)
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Wonder why I'm so lucky sometimes. Should be thankful and grateful. Yeah, guess I am. Many things really happened. Some are too deep that you can't understand so perhaps I shouldn't write it down, hahaha. Anyway, simple things like being alive is already a blessing! I almost died while running for 3.4KM outside school. Totally blur like I don't know.. Sotong? But yeah, felt shiok cuz I think i improved. Furthermore, I didn't have any training for months. Perhaps, a year. But yeah, things ain't always that good. But i guess blessings comes with curses too? But nah, curses are too small that you can just ignore it. Anyway, felt really happy for this past few days! Yet.. Hmmm, sometimes I wonder why I don't have such an amazing smile and stuffs. People keep saying that when i'm emotionless, I look really fierce. Well, you can't expect me to be having an expression all the time. I think my temper is getting ridiculous too. Well, things can be unreasonable sometimes. But i think i'm at wrong too. Sorry people! :3

Alright, there's Adventure racing tmr! :)
Cool max max max. Gonna have fun and get my fats off me! Muhahahaha.

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It's God's will:)

Hope of all hearts.

2011-02-12T07:05:00.000-08:00

Amazing how God works in our lives. Sometimes, when life gives you lemon, squeeze it hard, take a sip, and enjoy what life gives you. This song has been a great influence to me! I still remember during YI camp, I broke down so badly just because of one sentence, "Your love never fails".

I can finally write it here openly for anyone who pass-by this blog to read.

Life as you have experienced for the past years, is not easy. Sometimes, life just suck the hell outta you. Sometimes, you just feel like you can fly right at the moment. Have you ever wonder why our life is like that? Nah, i don't have a definite answer to that. But I know that God is with me and that's enough. I work to fulfil his Wills, and not for my own desire. Well, for anyone who is reading this, Christianity is not a religion. To me, it's a relationship that i have with my lord and savior. The one who created me, and the one who died for me due to my unforgivable sins. But because of him, all was forgiven. Amazing, isn't it? It may sounds unimportant to you but have you ever wonder again, why are you given a life to live for? Hah. If you have not thought about it, you should get your brain outta here and think about it:)

Anyway, sometimes i felt like.. I don't know. Feels like everything is wrong. I too, feels lonely. Though everything may seems alright and fine. Sometimes, one person's reply or word may just smack me like a star falling down from the sky. It may seems impossible but yes, to me, your words are crucial. I'm not being sensitive, but i too am human. I too have feelings, you know? Getting jealous and stuffs, comparing, etc. It sucks. I want to stop, but i am given feelings and emotions. I can't possibly take it all away from me. So yes, as a Christian, life isn't perfect! But yes, you can make it turn better. God is amazing. 3 words proves you everything. He is, that P-e-r-f-e-c-t. Like, REALLY perfect! Sometimes things may seems impossible to me, but to him, it's just a tiny matter. How cool?

So i don't know why I'm even typing this out. But, I hope as I see this next time, I won't be the same anymore. I won't be getting sad over stuffs like that. I'll remember that God love is unconditional. Especially Friendship. It sucks sometimes, but yes, God is my friend and nah, i'll continue with my life! I'll meet new people as God has planned for me. I'm awesome, so are you! :)

Thank you Lord for the amazing things. Thank you for even speaking me into typing this out though I have no idea where this will lead to. I thank you for that I'm alive, that i'm able to end this day with a word of prayer. I thank you that I can have tmr set out for me, from you Lord. I thank you a million times, In Jesus Name, Amen!

I'm a 17 freak!

2011-02-11T00:09:00.000-08:00

Dear, _______

Yes, like you've seen the title, i'm freaking seventeen this year!

I'm not sure whether that's a good start and stuffs. Personally, I don't feel like i'm growing old. It's just that "Name" that is there. But oh wells, 17 years ago I was born into this world and it was amazing. By God's grace that I was being sent to this earth, Thank you!
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It was a really pleasent birthday day. Nothing much and special. I still had my priorities pointing to school. But what I'm glad about 8 FEB is that it marks the day I was born. I mean, living up to 17 years? Isn't it like.. COOL? I mean, I'm pretty sure that lots of children in this world didn't make it to 17. Or that, during that 17 years of their life, something bad happened like missing one leg/hands or whatever you name it. I mean, i'm really lucky. And I really mean it when i say, I'm LUCKY! How could one person manage to survive so long, like seriously? What's more, my moma had to go through that hard pain just to bring me to life. Isn't that cool?

So now you should understand why I'm not really getting into celebrations and stuffs. I think Birthday dates should be emphesised on thanking your parents or thanking God for what he've given you. Surving one year is hard, really. I'd just like to thank my parents for everything and anything. But sadly.. Nah. I can't do that.

To those who asked me what I want, you get what I mean when I said that you couldn't afford it right? It really was a time for me to reflect instead of enjoy. Sometimes, I even wonder whether I could get to 20years old. But still, I thank you for everything. It's really amazing! Thank you very very very much!

Love, Maya.

All the best days.

2011-01-20T03:01:00.000-08:00

First up, time for some Cambodia pictures which is supposed to be uploaded on the first week of january! It was totally awesome you can't believe what i've been through man! Though i'll literally see stones everyday, man it's unbelivable! It feels like I'm tune back to 1000 years back. Totally awesome and priceless experience! :)

I'm finally back with tons of pictures to upload! :D
This missing post shall be filled through this few days! Well, I can't possibly upload that much. Therefore, I'll take it slow and make sure anyone who sees this enjoy the pictures as much as i do! Beacause, they are PRICELESS!

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Well, I love what i wore :P
It's so much better than what i wore on prom which is sucky much seriously! :-)

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Hokay, tmr's gonna be awesome! :D
CHEERS MAN ^

CCA show case 2011!

2011-01-14T06:40:00.001-08:00

So glad that the boys are back! :D
Though there might be lots of bullying, it's still fun and lovely to see them!!!
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Up till today, I've really lived my life without any regrets! I joined Netball in the beginning of the year and whoa captain asked me to play for westzone though.. hmm I'm not too sure whether I'm still in due to some admins problems. I seriously have no idea which teacher is lying though(lie about the CCA thingy). Though I know one of them may be lying to me, I'll still do well in both WestZone and SYF! Even if i'm going to be hell tired and stuffs, but i'll do well! :-)
Oh and i feel so loved because both CCAs wants me so badly muhahahhahaha! >;)

Anyway, I'm so glad to see myself back to my oldself again! As in, for this week, I've been able to live my life with a positive attitude! It's not done by myself. But thank God for the strength that he gave me! I even managed to survived my second day at CO! I've even managed to skip chinese scoldings from lcl! Happy max max max! (I didn't finished up my hw. Nor my group's powerpoint presentation was done!) Well, I'm also glad that at least I got an A for my maths now! Feel so good to be doing other subjects when the others are doing E maths teeheeheheheh. I feel so evil! But well, if they did better than me next time, they shall deserve it! :D

Now, I need to rest. But i don't feel like sleeping YET.. Hah. Just to share some of my info, I've broked my promised 2 years ago. Crap. I'm sorry :\

I think they are nice people. I trust them! :)
Understand? Not..

I pray.

2011-01-10T06:12:00.001-08:00

I'm going to feel contented and happy about my marks!
(got lots of influence from TG! I'm going to see the world from a different point of view!)

Pray.

2011-01-08T21:55:00.000-08:00

Some of you out there may not know Him (not Justin Biber) but those of you who does, never say that you're unlucky.

I Promised to do the impossible.
Your love just never fails.

3rd day of school.

2011-01-05T06:53:00.000-08:00

I'VE GOT TO GO HOME EARLY BECAUSE THERE'S FREAKIN SCHOOL TMR:(

incoherent outing.

2010-12-20T04:46:00.000-08:00

OMG I CAN'T BELIEVE I ACTUALLY WENT OUT LIKE THAT
IT DOESN'T FEEL REAL HAH !!!!!!!!
OH MY OH MY OH MY :O

Actually I kept starring when that person's eating and walking and sitting and reading and talking and you name it.
And well, I can't believe we actually talk so well. He's funny when he laugh :3 It felt so unreal. And he's actually a gentleman and an ass. Well you get the point. He's super guai lan! More guai lan than any colour you can ever name. Anyway, colours' been away from me:( I feel so sad. Shucks! And guess what, tiny science actually asked me how I did for my Ns which totally surprised me! Gosh. It's like, one down, two up. But oh wells I did some cool things today! I did extention blue hair muahhahahaha >:) It's so tiny but i likey. BLUE TRIBE FTW

I can't wait for camp and cambodia! Totally cool to look forward to something I'm lovin' it cheeee! And furthermore, I'm updating blog! Muahhaha actually not much of a thing. Guess not much people would read it it's been dead for a month i guess:) But blogging is still part of my life. Diarys too! Oh whenever I look at my diary, it feels like me myself and I is so cute max. I feel like pinching myself hehehe. Okay, enough of it. Going to enjoy my camp fully! Teeheeee!!!! So i'm gonna catch up with you people soon!

:D
CHEERS, LOTS OF LOVE

心情

2010-12-17T06:13:00.000-08:00

我很失望很伤心心好痛
感觉好像世界快要被毁灭了
眼泪都好像干掉想哭也没得哭

Crazy time!

2010-11-21T07:38:00.000-08:00

WELL WELL WELL ,

Life has been amazingly cool. I like it.

Okay, let's summary(summaries lol whatever) everything that has happened.
>Have earned more than I needed (!!!)
>Attanded Chanels's fashion show!
>Went to Marina Sands sky park for free! (It was awesome, dead serious)
>Saw real life models! (They're TALL MAX and pretty jealous much)
>Experience LIVE DJ and DANCING (yeh know like pubs etc)
>Know what the real world looks like.
>So much exposure for free! Plus, earned money too :3
>SAW A DRESS THAT I LOVE
>But instead bought another one which is much cheaper cuz got offer
>Shopping spree with 5 girls which is a total torture
>FOUND MY WHITE CARD !!!!! (Immigration card)
>Get prayed by so many people (FIRST TIME KAY)
>Met my working friends and they're cool peopo.
>For the first time i bought so many things. Like accessories :\
>Spent around 100 bucks for everything !!!!!!!!
>Spending own earn money is nice ~
>Met good friend's good friend ^^ (Out of a hundred hotels, thousands of workers, millions of departments, zillions of floors, I became his patner. Cool bo?)
>Worked with triplets ~

uhhhh, couldn't think of more for now ~ Hhaha but if you do the math, all these is like awesome enough! My happiness and joy is already filled to the brim. I'll explode if there's extra haha. Hokay, tmr's gonna be cooler. I pray that everything could go smoothly! Yeah amen! Hehhee.

I am excited for Christmass! Home! Camp! Prom! Yeayyyyy ~
It's nice when you've got something to look forward to :)
YEAY YIPPIE YEAY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'll be gone but i'll be back!
I shall complain about prom in my diary. Though it might be positive and negative! But let's have fun since we paid 40 bucks for it TEEHEE!

Alright, I might not be blogging soon. Why? Because I might be in another part of the world in less than 30 hours time !!!!!!! Excited max :D

I love everyone though they might hate me. Peace :D
Love everyone on earth!

See your lights on the waters.

First timer.

2010-11-16T06:15:00.000-08:00

HELLO TO THE AWESOME PEOPLE OUT THERE !!!!!!!!!!!!! (;
I've had my first time today! well, it's not what you think it is. Just.. Don't think too much. For the first time in my life, I bought a KOI today!!! It was the kind of drink which people says it was amazing. But i don't see what's so amazing about it except the long wait and the price of the drink :\ And that was the first time I actually went to the shop and bought it. Well it tooked me more than 40mins I guess? It was kindof amazing. Next, for the first time in my entire 16 years of life, I went up to the Singapore flyer!! Well, it was nothing much actually. Just the cool pictures taken, the cool view, the good air-cons FULLSTOP

This is just some of my "first time" thingy. Had more but sharing wasn't in my plan. Hahha, yeh know why? Because I am OH SO DEAD TIRED right now, at this very moment. I ended work at 3AM yesterday and reached home at 4.30AM. Plus you've got to consider the time I had to brush my teeth and stuffs therefore you do the math. Had to wake up at 10AM to meet the peopo. But apparently there were some people who was later than me. Well the amazing thing was, she was the PLANNER and apparently the planner failed her own plan. How amazing can this people be eh?

Anyway, you've got to enjoy the pictures!

WHOA !!!!!!!!!! I LIKEY THIS PICTURES :D

YEAY MAX

Ohhhhh and it feels great to be a tourist TEEHEE!

Spree baby.

2010-11-14T09:46:00.000-08:00

Challenged people to treat me for meals today. Couldn't be better! Food paradise is always the top priority in my oh so awesome list. Nothing could ever replace it unless you can prove yourself better than food! (;
Anyway, this whole week is fully booked again! Yeay to me! :D It's so called an achievement that you're totally gonna be busy yeh know! You should be happy and proud that you're busy cuz some people wants to be busy but they simply can't. So i'm totally proud of myself! Plus, i'm so looking forward to work with my awesome friends! And especially for tuesday, thursday, saturday and the up coming monday! It's going to be awesome! And btw, to enlighten yourself, you should try to be positive and remind yourself that you paid 40 bucks for prom! So I think everyone should enjoy themselves and not to worry anything! So yes, I'm going to enjoy myself while I can because there's no turning back of time. (I've learned that the hard way. So you guys should treasure it unless you want to suffer much like I do. I didn't cherish well every single moment of happines i had. So, I was at fault and now it's the punishment!) I'm kinda happy that I am as busy as a bee so that i won't have any time to think about negative stuffs that can take away my every second of happiness and joy. Well to be better, I've managed to pleased myself with stuffs that i like! Like always, money isn't a problem to me. But right now, the major and worse problem shall be " TIME ". In a few days time, I'll be in another part of the globe! I'm so excited! TEEHEE. I shall be back with another group of awesome friends and we shall be untied again! It's awesome max:) Well, thank God for he gave me such and awesome life and awesome people around me! But like what my previous post ever said, there's a reason to why some people didn't make it to your future. So i shall learn to forget and take in new stuffs and explore the things around me that is gonna be new! Because sometimes you've got to let go so that new things can come in. By then they'll be tested again to whether they can make it to your future and after that, the whole sad cycle shall start again. You'll be hurt once again but with your experience, it'll be alright because you're going to be numb to it. Alright, i shall try to save time and earn more cash tmr! To the world around me, night sky are falling soon. Therefore, good night to everyone on mother Earth:>

Exhausted.

2010-11-13T04:42:00.000-08:00

I FEEL FUSTRATED ABOUT PROM:(
I WISH I COULD JUST WEAR A T SHIRT AND PANTS SO THERE IS NO NEED FOR ANY WORRIES. BUT I WANNA BE A TYPICAL GIRL AND WORRY FOR MY DRESS BUT I DON'T KNOW HOW!!! ANYONE TEACH ME?

AWESOME SOCKS :D

2010-11-09T08:16:00.000-08:00

Okay right now money is AWESOME SOCKS. It's currently flowing smoothly without any obstruction! :-)
Well, that's thx to God's awesome blessings! Without it, I guess there will be quite a number of obstacles right now.. Hmmmm! Well, praise him! WOOOO.
ALright, today was so special and crazy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Kinda the slackerst job I've ever had so far. Hmmmm! It was REAL slack. And the awesome managers are the really awesome people! :-)
I've got FREE awesome food, which is so good and nice GAHHHH. Although there wasn't any dinner, but wellllllll the food and everything was good enough! And I've got to tell you how wonderful the view is from the rooms! It's so AWESOME!!!!!!!!!! It's like looking at the whole view of Singapore City with those awesome buildings and mega structure and those skyscrapers! (HA all the same thing) But oh wells, it's awesome kay!!!!!!!!!!!! I think I've been working with hell lots of important people. Business man and women. On monday I met ministers and Boss from ALL the hotels! Muahhahaha >: ) I felt so important!!!! TEEHEE! And there were like VIP room and I was in charge of it with just manager Ronald. So i was the only one with him decorating the whole room. Don't think much. I was just boasting about how awesome i've did with his help. It was awesome hokay! If only i could take a picture of that room, you'll blast your eyes off your skull! No one complained about the room, customers were praising and stuffs! I even overheard a woman saying, "There's nothing i could complain about. It's simply perfect!" See how cool I did? It was meant for VIPs hokay! Important stuffs, no play play ;) Alright enough of the complains which I think none of you could understand that AWESOME feeling!! So yeah, today I was kinda mesmerised with the make up. Please remember observe the photos carefully!!!!!!!!!! :-)

Note: LET ME BE A TYPICAL GIRL AND ZILIAN ALRIGHT!!!! :-)

AWESOME PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!

Okay, it was cool because of the blue eye shadow! Wooo. Hhehehe, this is my very first time putting on make up! Therefore, i have the right to zilian all i want! Cool stuffs eh? Yeay ~

Alright, I hope my legs are catching up with the rest of my bodies wheeew. Bom bi bi!
N I G H T S !!!!!! T O O D L E S !!!!!!!!!!

Memories.

2010-11-06T11:54:00.000-07:00

"We came to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly."

- secret

Emotions.

2010-11-04T08:16:00.001-07:00

Do you think about me sometimes? Or am i just the stupid loner that thinks about you all the time? Who do you think you are to make me miss you so much?:(

OCBC (Shanghai night)

2010-11-02T22:30:00.000-07:00

70 BUCKS EARNED !!!!!!!!!!!! :D

YEAY TO ME.

If adding the previous ones, I still need 357 bucks.
Gogo me!

This is AWESOMMEEEEEE..
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Okay, ytd was a total disaster i swear. During working hours, we got scolded, people fought etc. There's lots of things going on man. But it was cool! Police, ambulance, managers, boss all came :D

Anyway, there were around hundreds of workers there. (Mostly ITE and poly students) Super cool! There were 130+ tables for the whole event. And my table number was 123 !!!!! I like the number very much:) Anyway, it was kinda boring while waiting for the managers to distribute us. So to kill time, i went to watch out for some cute and hot guys. Awww. Well, it works. There's this uhber cute and friendly guy who sat beside me while waiting. And another hot and sexy guy sat bside me after being distributed. And this hot guy was so hot that i can't stop staring at him! O_O He look okay. I mean, he didn't talk much. Looks perhaps, shy:\ And ohh, he was qualified as "cool" because of the way he walks, stand and facial expression. Well, it was kinda addictive i shall say -_______________- But it killed my time. So oh wells, who knows, we might not see each other anymore:)

WELLLLLLL..... On the other hand....

Okay let's not talk about negative stuffs because it really pissed people off. It pissed Gen off ytd. She went to "fan lian" with the manager. Super pro! hahah yeay a round of applause for her:)

Oh and one more thing, there's kinda more and more lao tikos (perverts) in Singapore! Better watch out you people. Especially boys ^^ Blinks.
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Moneymoneymoney.
-Camp.
-Airticket.
-KAYAKING!!!!

My 3 aims *pooop* hhehe.
I miss my fam:(

Thumbs down.

2010-11-01T08:13:00.000-07:00

Sometimes you just don't know what's wrong with you, or what's bothering you, even if nothing happened. All you know is, you're afraid of telling or you just simply couldn't put your feelings together to form a single word in the dictionary. It's just so simple yet complicated. The simplest step to take? Is to stay in a corner and not think about anything.

S L E E P !!!!!!!!

BORED MAX

2010-10-31T09:16:00.000-07:00

THIS IS RANDOM MAX:)
I AM SO NOT EMO THANK YOU

Oh
to
the
people
out
there

You'll have to remember to use your smile to change the world
And not let the world change your smile:)
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Just a random one: i just found out that whoever pisses you off the most on a daily basis will be the one you love the most FULLSTOP don't your life just work that way QUESTION MARK

Plus you can like a million people yet in the end the moral of the story will all just be about that girl which you're so in love with FULL STOP Why QUESTION MARK Because you can like every girl on this earth but only love one FULLSTOP

OH AND WHY AM I FEELING THIS WAY? BECAUSE I'M BORED MAX AND EMOTIONS JUST CAME AND GO:(
Awww how i wish my heart is made of stone and btw I DON'T KNOW WHY I'M NOT USING EXCLEAMTION MARKS OR WHATVER MARKS AND OH I'M USING CAPS :O I'M PURELY CRAZY AND I JUST PROVE MYSELF RIGHT :D HOW AWESOME CAN I BE TEEHEE

AND ALL THE BEST TO THOSE TAKING CHEENA As PEEEEPPP!

Joy of Weddings.

2010-10-30T07:20:00.000-07:00

I AM ABSOLUTELY IN LOVE W WEDDING PHOTOS !!!!!!!!!!! (;

This one best. I like it (Y) THEY FREAKING WENT TO THROW THE CAMERA UP SEY. HEART PAIN :<
Crazy mad rich people. Can't they be considerate a lil? People like me can get jealous yeh know! Boohoo.

See what I mean? He absolutely love crashing his camera! I envy but well, it's nice. I shall try it when i get rich for now, i shall continue dreaming..

Credits to the awesome photographer!
Bernard Teo (Avenue 8)

Ironic.

2010-10-28T08:34:00.000-07:00

You know how is it to have a day started, weirdly? Well, today's adventure was different. Way too different from the past few months.

First, you don't start your day by waking up late and looking at your clock that shows 1:23AM. It's going to give you a total shock. Oh at least, it shocked me for 4 minutes 33 seconds. My spare phone wasn't updated with the clock and dates. So it showed the time and date which was totally not accurate AT ALL. The date showed 18 January 2008. Best. And guess what? It was only 10:03AM when i woke up!

Second, you don't wake up knocking the bags beside your beds. You'll go cursing (#$%^&*) the whole way. Which is a total hell bad start. And well, good babes don't curse early in the morning. They curse in the afternoon. Be a babe and you'll know why:)

Thirdly, you don't go on-ing your comp even before you brush your teeth. Because once you press the "on" button, there's no way your butt can escape from that chair of yours. It'll be stickied, for hours.

Fourth, you don't go pressing your Internet and go search for dramas. Your butt can be there for an additional of 5hour. And your muscles shall rottttt!

Fifth, you don't go around scolding one person for not going for their exams. Because why? They're stressed up people. Shouldn't go and bother them! If you do bother them, you'll get stressed up too. Turst me!

Sixth, you don't just go out of your house in the very last minute. Why? Because you found out that you haven't brush your teeth, bathe, eat etc. So you've got to kill another 30mins just to do it.

Seventh, you don't go Lot1 walking to Yewtee. Why? Because by the time you reach yewtee, half a day is G O N E.

Eighth, you don't go to your friends house and rot. You know why? Because you'll find out that you hadn't had enough of dramas and you'll want to watch more. But the fact is, your friends wouldn't allow because it's time to CUT FATS. Which simply means, you're fat. And you've got to slim down and that you've got to quit sitting down on that very chair of yours infront of your big flat screen because it can only help you to accumulate fats instead of killin it.

Ninth, you don't go promising your friends to ride bike AND play basketball. Because you'll only end up with cycling alone instead of playing bb.

Tenth, you don't go around calling your OTHER friends where they are just because you miss them for a moment. Why? Because you'll end up not cycling but spending time with them at their house.

Eleventh, you don't go around chatting too much with people. Because after knowing more, you'll have to do more! Which leads to the twelve rule.

Twelfth, you don't go around and kpo. Why again? Because you'll end up in a wake! Well, I do know my friend's mom. So i had to go. A sign of respect. I didn't expect it to happen anyway. It was "destiny" and well, destiny was oh-so-nice to me. I wore total white today.

Thirteen, you don't go around smsing the elderly why you'll be home late. Because they ended up ignoring your messages while you were so worried that they might scold you.

And that is the 13 rule you've got to match up today! I mean, ME match up today. I think today is totally ironic. Cool too.

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Well, i guess God do this for a reason. Maybe it was meant to be. But oh wells, I'm glad in some way. Glad that she's able to join the Father above! Isn't that gonna be great? DROOLS. It's gonna be so much better than sitting infront of your comp typing all this out just to frustrate your anger out! Sharing your oh-so-super-wonderful day of yours.

Life has to go on, isn't it? Like what my cousin just reminded me 1 second ago, there's still a long way! Anyway, i feel blessed once again. I thank God that he gave me such a wonderful family and friends! :) :) :)

Oh, another thing. Felt blessed that i'm back with them again. Thank you Lord!

Alright, nice better than nothing. Chiaochiao.

Lucky biatch.

2010-10-27T11:15:00.001-07:00

HAH :D
IT FEELS LIKE , THE WHOLE WORLD IS GONNA DROP !!!!!!!!! I SWEAR (;
GOD BLESSED ME WITH TOO MUCH THINGS IN A DAY !!! I CAN'T CONTAIN IT ANYMORE :< OHHH NOOO !!!!!!!!!! :\

1st: MY RESULTS IS A TOTAL BLESSING !!!!! ^^ HEHHEE.
2nd: I'VE GOT A NEW PHONE! (Not really NEW) But it was better than my original phone! And this phone was supposed to be SPARE dude! AHHHH, and why did my phone broke down! Gosh. :\
3rd: SAW MR X HEHEHEHEH
4th: MR Z TALKED TO ME MUAHAHHAHHAHA
5th: CLOSER TO MR S YESSSSSSS !!!

OH AND MR A IS LIKE CHATTING WITH ME RIGHT NOW? HAHAHAHAHAH !!!!!

OKAY, that was like a million blessing already kay! I thank God that today was over, and that I did well for those papers! I really AM BLESSED! I thank you so much:)
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Well here comes pictures @ Saturday's bbq! ^_^ (THAT DAY WAS A BLESSING TOO)

OKAY LET'S CHECK OUT SOMETHING COOL !!!!!!!!!!!!

SAME HEIGHT ...

NOT :(

ORIGINALLY -

LIKE THIS !!!!!!! Awww. I want my height to be 170! PLZPLZPLZ. Well, shorter people, do not be too dissapointed. You can try again soon. Work harder! WEEHEE! HAHHA, i'm such a spoiler. I know. Ouh, and i'm such a bitch {:
I know that too!

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Okay, i shall repeat this. TODAY'S PAPER WAS A TOTAL JOKE. Well, i can't stand it! I think Cambridge can join just for laughs! ^ TEEHEE!

ANYWAY, EXAMS OFFICIALLY OVER ~
TIME TO PARTEHHHH BABY \M/

And you go, "awwww"

2010-10-24T06:14:00.001-07:00

Girl: We're best friends right?
Boy: Yes, of course.
Girl: So be honest with me, who do you like?
Boy: No one. I love someone.
Girl: Ohh, she must be very lucky.
Boy: Definitely. I've loved her ever since I met her.
Girl: Okay, since we're best friends, I wanna meet her. Go call her.
Boy: Oh okay.
* Boy takes out his phone, dials her number and phones her *
Girl: Wait, hold on I think I'm getting a call.
* Answers the phone *
Girl: Hello?
Boy: I love you.

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Boys, you've got to learn to be this cool ;)

ALL THE BEST FOR Os PEOPLE !!!!!!!!! ;)
DON'T FOGET TO BRING YOUR BRAINS ALONG! OH YOU YOURSELF TOO.

愛してるわ

2010-10-22T00:01:00.000-07:00

You taught me how to love once more, once again. Saranghae. If love can exsist in dreams, i'd choose to sleep than having to wake everyday. Because the best thing in life, is to meet you.

You're the best gift i ever had and ever will have.

KON.

2010-10-21T09:24:00.000-07:00

Well, well, well, life's POOP. What's poop without a lemon? It's SOUR baby. Then, what is Morgans without people? Well, that's not the point. The point is, life is good with people around. YOU NAME IT.

Kahhhhhhhhhh.
I think i'm going mad. It's drivin me crazy, crazeee baby. Chillin out in the hot sun is definitely one of a kind. Because I the one and AWESOME ME, will never go white! POOOOOOFFFFF. Whitey goes off flying" PAM. And he falls down through the sky, accelerating due to gravity and "AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH" Goes the screams. Eeeeyoheeeoheeeoh goes the sirens and PEEEPEEEP goes all the horns in the cars. Someone just died on the street.. That's me.

D:

OUCH. GOODBYE WORLD.

WTF.

2010-10-16T10:06:00.000-07:00

WTF.
WTH.
MORONS.
SUCKERS.

I'M SMILING YET I FEEL LIKE CRYING. AM I A FREAK OR WHAT?!

I THINK I'M GOING CRAZY BECAUSE OF YOU PEOPLE. FISH IT.

TWITTER AND FACEBOOK ARE TOTALLY USELESS FOR RANTINGS NOW.. ZZZ.

Morons.

2010-10-16T08:21:00.000-07:00

Oh wellllll. Wtf. I got scolded for, urgh whatever. Gonna stuff myself with lots of work. So that i won't slack and stuffs. Hope everything would be fine. Cheers. Sorry genius for not replying you. I couldn't stand it. Just give me some time. I'll let go of my anger. Sorry.

OMO.

2010-10-14T06:25:00.000-07:00

Listening to:

I still love this song.

I am currently into THIS:

He's cute. Way, way too cute.

Wants to watch this:

WAY TO GO BABY :D

You, have to watch this:

It makes me cry.
Sometimes i wonder whether it became a habit, or is it a feeling that came from the deepest part of my heart. I wonder why those tiny drip of waters came down so easily.

Turning it over.

2010-10-12T08:47:00.000-07:00

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Hah. Happy life. I'm leading an extremly weird life. Anyway, had basketball ytd with > Mavis, Wanlin, Alden, Tim, Junkai, Noah, Munho, James.

And I had netball today with > Mavis, Rachel, Diva (until now i can't spell your name! Joke), Suthev, Tim, Liyang, Syukri and his girlfriend:)

Ouhhh, amazing things happened today. Well, i just got to know the "underworld" of Singapore. Amazing eh? :\ Yeahhhh, it's cool. You should learn to know this world someday. It's different. :D

Anyway,

I feel blessed that i'm a child of God. (:

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Sand Chronicle.

2010-10-11T09:08:00.000-07:00

Sosuke Ikematsu FTW:)

I like it when he gives that serious face! :D

iLife

2010-10-09T07:26:00.000-07:00

For reciving his invitation means that I should lead up into that expectations that comes with the invitation.
I'll learn to be humble, gentle, patient and bearing. As i'll focus on how he has been patient with me.
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I agree to the fact that we people want to feel loved by others yet we do not give our love to the others. Isn't that human? But i shall be different because I accepted the invitation that he gave me. So being his disciples meant that I've got to love one another.

It's hard, but i'll try.

There comes a time in your life when you realise who matters, who never did, and who always will. So don't worry about the people from your past, because there is a reason they didn't make it to your future.

@jforjeanne.blogspot.com

This meant so much to me.

I shall learn to forgive and forget, even if it means to have it through the hard way. I'll learn. I promise.

Everyday is a gift from God.
Every minute is a gift from God.
Every second is a gift from God.
Every life is a gift from God.
Every time is a gift from God.
Everything is a gift from God.

And for that, thank you.

Hi people,

2010-10-08T08:36:00.000-07:00

Well, just ended live group! I think I'm shy. So i'll probably just post this here. I would like to praise those people whom i didn't get a chance to praise before. And that these people have played an extremely important role in my life. Ohh wells if you don't get to see this:>

To:

>Ruien. I'd like to praise you for being so smart!!! For being such an awesome YEARS of friend! It's like sometimes we don't even chat but then you'll still treat me so nicely which i don't think i deserve it sometimes! And it's like, you're ALWAYS there! Which i am EXTREMELY thankful for. And also, thankful for your crazyness and highness and sjbness. Hhaha! I'm happy to know you for so long! And that ahhhh, there's a million thing that i felt extremely blessed! :) It's really undescribable. It's like, i don't have a childhood friend. So you've replaced all of them! I really can't believe that i can know you for so long~ And I still remember our night classes! Catching, prefect duties and stuffs~ Gosh! It's still inside my mind.

>Charmaine Bay. Ahh! Hi babe. I bet you're reading this right now. Wooo~ Okay, i'd like to praise you for being such a Charmaine Bay. Hhaha! You're different from others. Special in a way. It's like i can get to insult you, shoot you, scold you, love you, ahhh whatever. It's like, I'm thankful for knowing you! Sincerly and Seriously. It's like we just simply match if one of us is a guy hahaha. And whenever i'm with you, it's called JOY. You have done extremely well in playing a whole chapter in my life! Oh, the wonderful times is like we spray water on each other, smash cakes, draw onto each other's legs, hands. And how I have to secretly go out with you. Hhaha, it's all IN MY HEAD RAWR. But oh wells, without you, my secondary school life shall suck lots lots lots!

>Joycelyn, Agnes, Lydia. Well to the 3 of you. I doubt you'll see this. But I'm praising you cuz you guys are so so so nice! I can't stand it. You guys are REALLY NICE. I like it whenever we hang out together. I like it when you guys smile. I like it when i'd just mock you guys about boys. Hahha, and that you guys can never be angry with me! Forgive me and etc. Ahhh, and most importantly, you guys just can't stop making me happy and smiling! Thank you for the awesome memories too!

>Cshihui. Whoa Hmmm. Praising you consist of alot of things. Eg, pretty, crazy, hyper, lovely, sweet, sexy, etc! I am really really really thankful for the awesome memories! I mean, I think even if i grow old, that part of my life will still be inside my head. I feel really happy whenever i'm with you cuz you can go high with me without thinking that i'm crazy! It's really wonderful. Oh, maybe you'll think differently but i really took you as my extremely good friend for the past few years. We can just spend time with the whole clique sharing things together and stuffs. And how we always play basketball pool and going out together with a group of guys. Oh and like staying back until v late together. Going together with Cherie or Enru too! I think without you, my secondary school life will be defined as B O R I N G! To me, knowing you is like a total blessing! I just hope that the awkwardness that we're having for this whole year shall disappear and that we can be back as per normal! Hopefully!!! And thank you for EVERYTHING:>

>Enru. Oh yeah, to YOU YOU YOU! Yes, you! I like you cuz you're always smiling! I like it. I am so thankful for you too cuz whenever i see you, you'll never fail to smile at me! It brightens up my mood yeh know! It's just, wah see you, i can see a smile! Oh, i like your high voice too. Kbox i mean, i still remember how you sing. It's so high that wah it's nice! HAHAHA, awww thanksssssssss for everything especially the smiles! 8)

>Shiyun. Ahhh! YOU! I'm so thankful for knowing you too. Like how we go crazy over someone or some dramas! And that we can spend hours chatting over it. Also I still remember the times when we go canal, run to the 7-11 eleven to get food before Mr Foo's remidial class starts. And how our relationship gets by. Like we still can go out together even after years of not seeing each other. Hahah, and that you'll still share with me your things and the happenings in your life! Oh, but i really hope we can contact each other soon! It's been again another year since we've talked or message or going out. Oh, and how you persisted on to play basketball just to play with me and stuffs? Ohhh, just happy man! Thanks:) Oh plzplzplz go out soon!

>Jeanne. Aww man! I shall praise you for being so pretty and skinny! Ohhhh, i like it when you listen and hear what i always wanna say! It's like, you won't reject me and stuffs. Which i appreciate it so much! And that we can always stay in the playground without being bored. With you, I can be a girl and discuss lots' of stuffs! Now, we're back to CLOSE! Yeayyyyy! Which i am kinda happy. Hehehe. Awww, and i always like it when you know how i feel. That i don't have to explain so much and stuffs. And yeah, I am so so so thankful that you are there:) And that i like it when i know that i can trust you! Woo wee.

>Jieying. Let me add on! Hhaha, i mean, elaborate! It's like when you ask someone whom you do not know you, when they look at any picture they'll always say (a group picture), "Eh. This girl very pretty!" HAHHA, and it will always be YOU! (Y) They'll point you i mean. Oh and thanks for being so nice to me ALWAYS! It's like, when i'm lonely, you'll be there. Thankful thankful thankful to the very max! Hhaha, you might not noticed but sometimes when i felt lonely or feel pangseh, you'll be there! And that you're always so humble. wahhh! I still can't get rid of the memory when you and Ruien etc called me a lost sheep. Hhaha, still, it was memorable! And ya, after classes, we'll eat together and stuffs. Heeeeee! :B ahhh, so many! Indescribable!

>Nicole. Hmm, you. Suddenly you just pooped out of my mind. I think we've just been friends for not long. But i think we've got the same desire and wishes and stuffs that that makes me think that we're close. Hahha, thanks for the frequent fridays and sharing! I like it i like it i like it (Y) talking to you is like always so fun! Heee. And wha, i like it for the fact that being with you can be so normal. And that scolding you, you won't get angry. Like scolding you a bimbo bitchy asshole etc won't make you feel offended! The way you do things is like different from others! Hhaha.

> I felt the urge to write for many people. But i think these are more the the practical ones. I mean, they do play an extremely important part in my life. I just hope that everything will turn out good before year end and stuffs~

Oh edit edit:
>SOMEONE. I thank you for that message the other time. Thank you for being so honest that you shocked me for a moment! Now suddenly i know what i felt weird about. I think sometimes i felt really left out. I felt like i am so not inside the clique that I think i'm not supposed to be there. Sometimes i doubt whether your "treat me so nice everytime" is like being true. Like you have to be forced to be nice to me. Therefore we have to always put on such a fake mask. I think that's the problem that i just realised now. Just hope that you'll treat me like a normal person. When you're angry with me, be angry. When you feel uneasy, then tell me or do something to it. When you feel pissed, be pissed. I don't want you to force yourself to be so nice to me. I don't think i like it either. I think i would love it if you can scold me sometimes, show me your emotions and not hide it from me. Just don't ignore me or push me side ways.

Do hope you know who you are :\ and that you'll get what i mean.

This is so random. But i think i really wanna just write it out. I don't know if i want them to see it or not. But well, let natural takes its course! (oh and my english might be.. You know it)

BUT
EXAM'S OVER!

So no worries for english Muahahhaa>:)
Left Maths that has nothing to do with English keekekeke!

And probably to those who saw this but didn't see yourself, I think cuz i've praised you enough! Hhaha, or plz complain to me why you didn't see yourself here! HAHHAA, exclude boys though. :D BLEH :P

OH THIS IS IMPORTANT STUFFS:
TELL ME IF YOU HATE ME RIGHT IN THE FACE :D
THANK YOU!!!

Current status.

2010-10-02T11:32:00.000-07:00

It's 2:32AM, 3/10/2010, Sunday after watching Playful kiss and The last song. Currently on blogger, facebook and twitter while chatting through msn with some retards. At the same time, listening to One Glorious Day and sms-ing green, bro and BFF. One second later, yawning and trying to end this sentence. Before these, I went to meet Jonas brothers to take pencil box in the middle of the night talking nonsence. On my way back home, i jogged for awhile and now i'm going to bath. Okay, Goodnight. (:
@STATUS DONE.

Super B:

2010-09-26T06:03:00.000-07:00

Crap! I think my mom is a pretty woman. I'm feeling so jealous. Next week sermon is so gonna be good for me (Y) Moma look good in a dress! And i felt so out of place:( Sigh! Even my sis is qualified to be a CHIO BU. What's me?:(

Worth while.

2010-09-25T08:53:00.000-07:00

Unofficially end of school! *CLAPS*
Okay, last day wasn't that bad. Perhaps, I'm happier than most of them. Although sad for certain reasons, but I'm happy. I mean, the "bad apples" shall disappear. What can be better than that? I mean, having to endure their "games" for the past 4 years. I-Had-More-Than-Enough. Don't need more:)
Anyway, teachers bought us pizzas and cakes for the monthly babies! It was kinda lovely, everyone was cooperative for ONCE. Amazing right? Okay, let's hope the ones who should be gone, be gone. (: BLAH.

Enterprising? Hmmm! I really wonder if i'm an enterprising student ^ Muahahah>:) I wonder why teacher thinks that I'm enterprising! Anyway, finally got back my top10 position again! HA. What's best about getting top 10? That is, getting the MONEY HONEY. Popular voucher! And i shall use it to buy my korean language dictionary (Y) Best!

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Anyway, life has been amazing. I felt so happy after praying for Mavis LXY. It was idk what kind of joy. But i felt really happy after praying for her! No reasons uh:> Really weird! Hmmmm! Now i think I've got to pray for myself. Because i need God to give me directions on the next thing to do! I mean, i really have no idea whether i should stay in Singapore for Christmass or go back home to celebrate with Family! I miss them! But i don't wanna miss the last gathering with the sec4 cohort people! And i don't want to miss camp and getting the results! But i really wanna go back to Indonesia and do lots of things! D:

Show/tell me what to do next, will you?

Like an airplane through the sky.

2010-09-22T04:58:00.000-07:00

Sometimes, I really hate the fact that I'm in NA.
I feel dumb.
I feel stupid.
I feel degraded.
I feel whatever you name it.

First, you can't blame the "smarter people" for looking down on us. Perhaps if you were to be them, you'll feel the same way. But shouldn't they control their thoughts or something, seriously? At least, if you're trying to be nice and tell me something sensible, think about it in MY POSITION.

For the start, it's of course my fault to be getting a low grade for PSLE. But after that, the school should at least treat fairly to everyone regardless of whether they're from ES, NA, NT. It sometimes pissed me off. And for those people out there, please note that in GENERALL, NA is definitely defined as "Noober than ES better than NT" And that usually NA people are all those slackers and stuffs. But it's USUALLY, not ALL. I know I'm not the best, but at least I'm not the worse! Seriously, sometimes the way you people speak, can cause someone elses dreams to vanish away just like that. *ppooof* In a blink of an eye.

I admit that I'm really pissed whenever people say that way. I know they're not at fault. But am I at fault too? Probably at the start. But I've tried hard to change. It's really not easy. Studying hard is one thing. The second things is about the treacher. If you really come to our class, you'll know the condition. How to study? How do you even improve? It's not like you want to, then you can. But it depends on the environment too right? The surroundings? I mean, if you don't have a teacher that teach, how can you study?

Eg. One of my sub teacher, never teach for more than 5 lessons this year. The rest of the year is used for project works. So how do you expect me to pass my theory? I mean, yes i might be able to PASS. But i doubt for distinction because you study WITHOUT DIRECTION. What happens if you study the wrong thing? Isn't it a DOOM for you?

You get what I mean? U R G H seriously!!!>:(
That's why people says that LIFE IS UNFAIR because It really is! Now can I get angry? Now you know why?
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Count down: 2 Days left.
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Seriously, don't stop me now. Don't screw my dreams. Even if you think I can't, then let me be. Because if I'm a human, I believe I can. And I think even if i looses out, you don't loose out right? So it's not really hard for one person to not insult my dreams right? Easy perhaps?

Post-to.

2010-09-19T06:08:00.000-07:00

I just finished watching (If you could return to the past for the 2nd time).

If you ask me whether i would want to return, probably not.
I'd choose not to, because changing the past would mean changing my love ones. I'd probably be worse right now, if i had to change my past. The present couldn't be any way much better:)

Thank you people. I love you.

6600i

2010-09-13T05:52:00.000-07:00

Finally my phone has been aid. So glad it made it through! 8)

And i've just finished Harry Potter. Whole series I mean! Urgh, blame myself for reading so fast!
I would probably re-read it again if i have the time! Yesss, that shall resolve the sadness in my heart. I have the desire for it to continue! The ending is so simple and short! >( Volt died and everyone live happily? Ohhh noo! Harry married to Ginny? Children named after the great wizards? Noooooo! D: PLZ ROWLING, GET BACK TO YOUR JOB AND INVENT ANOTHER HARRY PLEASE:(

I think i shall be bitchy and say, without Harry, my life sucks:)

Infectious smile disease!

2010-09-11T07:15:00.000-07:00

Smile whenever you can. Trust in what you believe. It would be nice whenever you see someone smiles at you, isn't it? Well then, start sharing your smiles too! It's infectious! Believe me, when you smile, everything around you would look much better and brighter. Even the shittiest thing on earth could be a good thing to you! :)

(C:Papertissue!)

Well, hear the sound of all creation. Hear everything around you. Hear the your own heartbeat.

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Well, I'll have to confess. I felt a slight twinge of jealousy. Couldn't really understand why, though. I should have felt numb. Since it's been like so long ago. Sometimes I really couldn't understand what I'm feeling nor could i understand what my brain is thinking. It just feels like it's not my brain/heart. Ugh, simply complicated! But i still have self-control. Everything would be fine:)
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Guilt: I wanna ask something. What if, you shouted at your parents because they are in the wrong? Is that supposed to be a type of guilt? A monster?:(

I pray that father Lord can give me the answer and that he'll tell me what to do next!

I'll smile!
Even to the worse extend of life.

HAPPY!

2010-09-08T04:30:00.000-07:00

TWO AND A HALF DOWN, 4 AND A HALF MORE TO GO ! :)

Do not give up and persist on! Go go go!

Triumphant gesture with MY fist.

2010-09-07T04:25:00.001-07:00

HA!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE 3 BABYS :D
LOVE YOU PEOPLE <3>)
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Okay, something totally made me U R G H all the way! Debated about religion stuffs again. Irritating! But i made clear of my point! Proud of that. I'm still proud that i'm a child of God! And I have faith in what I believe is true! 8)

You know how it feels when people made a point to debate to you about the bad side of religion stuffs and keep talking about it non-stop that you haven't even get a chance to debate back! Totally unfair treatment in debating! But at least I made my point at the start. It was clear and right! T O T A L L Y ^

Glory to the God who have saved me!

Wecam spam

2010-08-31T03:33:00.000-07:00

Don't vomit blood (:
FOR PERSONAL SELF-SATISFACTION!!!!

Don't vomit blood! Or vomited alr?

Shopping spree!

2010-08-30T04:00:00.001-07:00

Okay, i think i seriously need to think about my outfit. Everyone has been complaining!!! They really got a lot of comments. I really like my IRC shirt, it's comfortable to the max! Ahhh, shut it. Probably, I'll get a new shoes, slippers and a outside "wearable" kind of shoes or I don't know what you call it. I don't shop remember? Ah ha! Can't blame me for the lack of vocab i have in the shopping category.. Seriously, can someone just volunteer and go out shopping with me?:( I think I'm pathetic enough. Oh. You can't volunteer yourself if you know that you've got the exactly opposite taste with me! Someone knows what i mean, hehee. Oh probably you can. Might probably pay more attention to those you think it's horrible. Make sense? Anyway, tell me if you can! Simple advertising here. And by the way, I love it whenever i don't have to leave a paragraph. I think it's cool. Oh, I guess i need to pay attention to my English too. It's getting horrible. Major examinations is coming! Gotta bury myself in the books. It's crazy!!! But i think I need some encouragement here too. I've been spending too much time reading my dear Harry Potter and my computer. I think Harry Potter is damn nice! Can't help it, seriously.. People should start reading it! The story is extremely nice alright! Full of surprises and you can never get bored in every page. I swear! But you've got to understand i guess. If not, it wouldn't be interesting anymore. Wooo. Alright. I think my essay is nice. Well done! 3 Cheers:)

Study fever.

2010-08-29T02:42:00.000-07:00

I think life would be a despair if you don't look at the bright side. 

I really miss playing badminton and basketball:(
Sigh. Guess i've got to resist further.

GOGOGO!

2010-08-25T02:54:00.000-07:00

One day glory is for one year satisfaction :)

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AHHHHHHHH gonna declare that I'm poor! Donate me some cash please! ZAPPPPPS.
Okay, I'M DESPERATE FOR EXAM MOOD!!!! Donate me some too. Pleeawwweese *puppy face* GAHHHHH!!!

Take a deep breath.

2010-08-23T03:28:00.000-07:00

Happy birthday to all the august peeeeps. Time is running. Isn't it?

It's too much. I thank God for every single thing he did in my life. I love my life and I shall look into the bright side of life. It can be bad sometimes, but I think he've got a greater plan for me. (: I believe so ^^
Awesome things had been happening! Ahhhh, just feeling very happy sometimes! I want nothing more than this. T Y :D

Sometimes, I really wonder why i'm sucha lucky bitch:)

P O S I T I V E I S C O O L ^ ^

Killer.

2010-08-18T22:56:00.000-07:00

HONESTLY, I FEEL LIKE KILLIN MYSELF
RIGHT NOW

(!!!)

ZAHHH!!!!

2010-08-14T09:22:00.000-07:00

You get hurt, simply because you care.
Simple reason yet so complicated.

I think my heart is melting once again. Crap.
What's wrong with me?

Mr Tae!

2010-08-13T05:09:00.001-07:00

KIM TAE WOOOOOOOOO~

ONE WAY - MAGIC !!!

MISTER ( LA LA LA ~~~ )
This song keep replaying in my head :3

RAHHHH!!!

2010-08-12T00:02:00.001-07:00

Indeed, you still feel jealous after years of training.
It
sucks
,
and
I
totally
hate
it
because
once
you
treat
me
a
lil
nicer
,

all
the
hardwork
that
i
did
for
the
past
few
years
,

is
gone.
//
*pooooooof*

But the best things is, this proves how much I loved you.

Day to days.

2010-08-08T08:28:00.000-07:00

BEWARE: The happenings.

Okay, this is last week i guess? Apparently, i've got short term memory. Therefore, you can't blame me for the incorrect details! :)

I like this photo! The lighting, one word, AWE-SOME!

This is what i call, "QIAN-ZHOU" Face!
Okay, this was like 1 week ago. Let's rewind the time to make it faster. Let's check my last thursday! :)
*ZAPPPPPPS*

Okay, not much. Had YOG rehearlseals and sports games. I received my prize that day. Glad to get so many claps. Thankyou to those people who clapped! Hhehe kinda happy yeh know ^^ (When you get so many claps while the others doesn't have it? Yeh get what I mean don't yah?) :P :P :P
Thanks!

Anyway, Let's proceed to Friday! The real YOG performance! :)

Died after the 400m sprint! :(
ACHE FOR 4 DAYS KAY!!!!(OR MORE) IT WAS SO TERRIBLE MAN! (I think i too long never exercise Hmmmmm!)

On the way. I can't contain myself anymore, DH IS SO CUTE! X TO THE D !!!!

Crashed Bay's house.

Self-potrait is necessary sometimes.

Girls~ yeh know it.

Ended.

With love,

A to the B to the C.

2010-08-01T06:31:00.000-07:00

Isn't it cool? :P
i hope i'll do something like this one day ^^

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Anyway, sorry for the broken english from the previous post. ALL the previous i mean:)

That faith!

2010-07-31T05:50:00.000-07:00

I LOVE TODAY !!! XOXO :D

I enjoy everything that has been planned to me. Okay, i love yesterday too

FOP!!!! (Festival of Praise)
There's planetshackers and don! They're hot! Okay, people said it was a lil meant for adults but i think it suits me well. I love their songs :D It's cool! Praising with everyone! hehehe. I'm just upset that i had to leave early and that i can't see my schoolmates! :3

EXCITED AND HAPPY!!!! ^_^ (SORRY NO LINK)

Okay, so by the end of the day i was so exhausted that i fell asleep immediately. But before that, Jeff sms-ed me saying that he injured his leg and that he can't come the next day. So i was kinda indecisive. I wanted to go, but i don't want to go alone. Therefore, I had no idea what i was doing. But before i slept, i manage to make my decision and go for it.

That night, i couldn't sleep because i was so afraid that i would be late -_- So i woke up 6 to 7 times after 5AM in the morning :\

Anyway, didn't regret going there! Thanks Steve for inviting me :D
I felt really happy there. Know why? Because it felt like a family, it felt like home. Everyone speaks Bahasa. Yeah man! Enjoyed myself much :D
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After everything, I rushed back so that i could make it for service! Yeah, and man. I benefited again! Awesome!
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I'll honour my parents, anyone that has the authority over me, no matter what!

Time Machine.

2010-07-29T05:23:00.000-07:00

I need a rewind back.

I hope i'll have a camera and a photoshop soon! Good news is, there is FOP tmrw! :D Bad news is, there's oral tmrw! :3
I shall be positive. Both shall be good news to me! Because after today, oral is gonna be down. YEAH BAYBEHHHH!!! :)

Time is cool. Rewind me to sec2 please!

The incoherent post.

2010-07-27T02:27:00.000-07:00

Alright an update for an update. I just decided to post everything here again. My curiousity kills.

Here is the link: http://all-toyou.tumblr.com/
(don't bother reading other post)

Anyway thankyew thk for lending me his phoney :D
YEAYYYY! It's the best joy i've ever get ever since!
Woooho.
Today was great too. (tehee, I won't tell you why) PEEEEEEP! *BANG*

Racial Harmony '10

2010-07-26T04:10:00.000-07:00

Doesn't he look like Andy Lau? :O

Satisfied much :D

Edward Maya ! :D

2010-07-21T05:27:00.001-07:00

COOL EHHHH :P (ME ME ME)
Anyway, he's such a bitch.
F .. Fish burger plus coke with fries. Rahhhh!

Check this out too. Happy racial harmony day.

:(

2010-07-18T05:30:00.000-07:00

Tons of things happened. Words can't place them neatly together. So I'll mix them up.
- I met the guy who said "It's over". (Sucky much)
- I was jealous. (Much more sucky)
- I quarrelled with you-don't-wanna-know-who. (Sucky then ever)
- I told him the truth and he seems to be avoiding me. (Sucky to the max)
- I was late and everything was over. (this was still alright)
- I found out that he stead with her because she had a cancer. (Feeling weird)
- I hate the fact that I was me. (Does this make sense? Oh yeah)
- I had to hide myself so that i will not get people's attention. AA. (URGH)
- I have not finish my coursework. (!!!!!!!!!!!)
- I think I'm crazy much. (CAN'T AGREE MORE)
- I hate the fact that I'm tired. (ZZZZZZZZ)
- I hate the fact that I had to tell myself that life isn't just about this (I'm weak to the max for this)
- I wish life can be better then this (I know you wish so too)
- I hate to the very max that i fell for him before. (Regret! I swear)
- I hate the fact that I know the both of them. (Yess. BOTH! And that they are both close to me)
- I hate the fact that I know alot of things. (HEH)
- I hate the fact that I am ME. (AGAIN)
- I hate the fact that I have to live.
- I hate the fact that I am born.
- I hate the fact that I live in this Earth.
- I hate the fact that there are more things and that I can't put them into words.
- I hate the fact that I have limited vocabs to express my feelings now.
- I hate the fact that you don't understand how i feel now.
- I hate the fact that I had to endure this feelings.
- I hate the fact that I have feelings.
- I hate the fact that I couldn't understand what my love ones are saying.
- I hate the fact that I hate her.
- I hate the fact that She couldn't understand me.
- I hate the fact that I couldn't forgive. (Even if I know that I have to)
- I hate the fact that you read this and yet you don't know anything.
- I hate the fact that you're so innocent.
- I hate the fact that I know everything.
- I hate the fact that you're assuming alot of things now.
- I hate the fact that I suck.
- I hate the fact that I hate everything.

Need me to carry on? I bet you've off this whole thing. Sigh. "It's gonna be over soon." I believe so.

Midnight! 00:00

2010-07-15T09:02:00.000-07:00

Hey guys. It's late >:(
But i'm still chiong-ing my course work! What does that mean? It simply means that i'm guai. Like D U H. That's an obvious thingy thing (hehehe) *giggles.

Alright, meanwhile, this song have been helping me throughout this whole hours of tourture. I'd like everyone to enjoy it too! So here goes :D

nighty nights.
C H E E R S :)

Sexy much.

2010-07-13T05:12:00.001-07:00

HAWT MUCH EH???
SEXY TO BOTH MY HOT GUYS *DROOLS*

-
I'm happy that my Oral's over. Pheww.
Happy much. (:
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This is thy hour O Soul, thy free flight
into the wordless,
Away from the books, away from art, the day
erased, the lesson done,
Thee fully forth emerging, silent, gazing,
pondering the themes thou lovest best,
Night, sleep, death and the stars.

He is hawt, I swear. :D

2AM & WORLD CUP FINALS!!!

2010-07-12T03:19:00.001-07:00

YEAY TO SPAIN !!!!!!!!!! GLORY 8)

Alright, i'm not a crazy fan of football. Therefore, enough of that. Spain won. And the whole world will be seperated into despair and happiness. For me, it's neutral. I don't care much, i think:>

Let Spain be happy. Time to look forward into the next world cup, which is 4 years down the road :) I'll be 20 by then. I don't mind going to Brazil to watch Live performances! 8D
-
Anyway, today's Oral was .. Horrible/Bad. I got nervous half way through. So i guess i screwed my picture discussion. Oh hwweells, it's over. No point ranting over it. But we are all humans right? So probably part of me still wants to complain about it :\

I wonder what will happen to my upcoming chinese oral eh? S I G H.

AHHHH!!!!

M
A
D
N
E
S
S

Really .. It's drivin me crazy!!! Some of you should understand how i feel.

Alright, i guess i've done my very best. (8
Thank God! :D

Chiao.

Enjoy 2AM's vid!

Oh btw, my new aim > Im Seulong. (Heheheh)
He's hawt! And finally, there is a guy who is tanned!!!
Let me be a typical girl, for once!

World cup.

2010-07-11T04:33:00.001-07:00

There, here and everywhere - World Cup.
How could i miss it?

This sounds weird but, I'm supporting Spain! Go Spain go! 8)

Shinning in your heart.

2010-07-10T09:14:00.001-07:00

Hello.
I went to study with Liaw today.
Bye.
-

E math>Bible Study>English>YOG>Home.

I miss playing sports.
-
I'm craving for a camera. (Y)

(:

2010-07-09T07:27:00.001-07:00

MAD HARD CORE HOT AND GOOD PHOTOGRAPHY (Y)
I'M CRAVING FOR A CAMERA BIG TIME.

I still love will.

Update!

2010-07-08T05:02:00.001-07:00

Hello. I'm in love with Will.

To: Kaerah!

2010-07-04T05:54:00.000-07:00

I LOVE EN AND I KNOW SHE LOVES ME TOO! (KISSES)
Honey with bee!
-

I will sing I will praise you.

2010-06-27T06:27:00.001-07:00

Dear God, i pray that you will heal Shiyun's mom no matter how bad her cancer is. I pray that you will show your miracle towards her family. I know that you will.

A Million thank you.
Amen.

End of June Holidays.

2010-06-25T06:16:00.000-07:00

Out to watch karate kid!
We super long never go out together le D:
I wish we really can spend more crazy time together. Really.

I likey this picture !!!

Comparing eyes ahaha.

NC16. Eh, i'm sixteen.

it was (Y).

-

CAPTAIN BALL ! (FINALS)

Warming up!

No comments haha.

He was posting for me!

Tired. (LOOK HOW WHITE I AM!!!)

Totally unglam. But, whatever :)

After the match.

TOTALLY AA.

:D

Good news: I AM OFFICIALLY CHAO-DA!!!!!
Cheers.

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Gonna be back to school. Reaction? S I G H !!!!!